The Word

Well...the day is finally here. Well tomorrow but it's still "here." By Wednesday morning I'll either be happy as hell or planning my escape to another country. I have made it no secret that I plan on voting for Barack Obama. He speaks to me in ways that McCain can't and there's no better way to show this than through music. I love imeem because I love finding new music. Especially when I don't have to pay for it. The site put together the Top 10 songs for each candidate based off of interviews they did with music magazines, events, etc. Pretty cool idea. I've embedded Obama's playlist below. There's also a link to McCain's if you really want to check it out...

It's no secret that I'm a nerd in many respects. I play video games, read comic books and graphic novels, like sci-fi, fantasy and hope that someday I will own a lightsaber. One thing I touched for a small amount of times were MMOs or MMORPGs. For those that don't speak nerd talk, think World of Warcraft. Now I played WoW for about a month because I wrote a paper on the effects of online gaming on social skills in college but I never delved into it. There is on thing I can't deny though, films made in WoW are hilarious. If you never saw the "Make Love, Not Warcraft" episode of South Park, watch it now. It was nominated for an emmy!

Anyway, if a movie is made in a game is referred to as Machinima and I came across this one the other day that focuses on the election. In the clip, several players are interviewed and polled about their voting choices for the election. Not a bad idea considering 11 million people play Warcraft.

Now I for one am a fan of Mark Wahlberg aka. Marky Mark but I'm also a fan of Andy Samberg so this battle is a lose-lose for me. Granted Mark is kinda acting a little bit like a douche. Its just a joke man. Have some fucking fun.

To state the case for Andy, I point you to a clip I've posted before:

So my last post was kind of a downer. Wine and herb. What can I say?

Switching things up...FUNNY VID! Something about cats always works on me.

For the last two years, I've spent much of my time either too intoxicated to care or too sober to care. That really has nothing to do with what I'm thinking right now. I'm laughing to myself just reading it. I nearly deleted it but it was too great to erase from existence. Basically, I've had somewhat of a realization...

Not one of those life altering realizations...well maybe. I just realized that I've been going after women the same way I attracted the last woman in my life. Damn, if I could really explain how often I've beaten myself up and thought about it on a night just like this one. No one here, a glass of wine and an empty bottle.

The fact is...I'm a sad man. Not sad in the emotional sense but sad as a description of the type of man I am. I'm smart, strong, fairly confident and on my way to success. But, I don't provide excitement. Hell I barely provide a laugh lately. Something has changed and it took my damn friends invading my mind with thoughts that I have pushed off for so long. Thoughts that I couldn't believe were true because I had been shown differently from so many other sources. I was a sociology major as well as a comm major and I don't think I've used either one. The things I've learned I have completely ignored.

No longer will I believe the things I see and hear from the popular mediums. Who's to say that man has to behave a certain way to make a woman interested? Who's to say how we should treat each other and what has to be done to get to home plate. Yea, I'm taking it there. Fuck off. Basically the fact of the matter is, society has fed me shit for way too long. I was someone who said fuck society and pop culture but I was living in it. I studied the shit and I was falling victim to it. Well, you know what? Times are about to change. I can see things just a little more clearly and it really bothers me the way I found it. I hate it so much. But I hate what taught me this because it's right. Because I refused to believe it but now it makes sense...all because it finally hit me.

Too many nights like this one. Not enough nights like the ones I really desire. Too many rejections and failures instead of the successes I want. And after all that...I never changed it thinking I was the one that was right and you were the wrong one. Well I secede. You've won boys and I'm in. Time to take up the reigns and take 'em down.

For those that have no idea what the fuck I'm talking about...don't worry about it. This is the most strange thing I've ever written and I'm sure I'll laugh uncontrollably while I read this, but I'll be thinking YES the entire time.

I'm not going to be this guy anymore. I'm going to be more. I'm going to be what I know I can become. And I'm going to show it this time...

If you got a chance to see the debates last night than you probably have somewhat of a headache. Some of Palin's moments were a little less than amazing. Somewhat confusing too. To help, Daily Kos provided a nice flow chart to help make sense of Governor Pitbull's thinking.

So that's what she was thinking...

It's not really new to me or to my friends but I just have to make sure people know about The Bronx. They're badass and people should check them out. I haven't had a chance to see them live yet. I was going this one time in some old limo with a bunch of snow but that didn't work out. Thanks a lot Brandon...

How do you know when a relationship has run its course and it's time to call it quits?

I've been super busy lately and now is no different but I saw this question and just had to weigh in being that I've dealt with this situation on more than one occasion.

A few warning signs for ya:

• You're partner begins to monitor your schedule on a minute-by-minute basis. Usually comes with incessant text messaging which include: "Where are you?" "When are you coming home?" and "Who's Rachel?"
• Hate that you work all the time even though you need the money to continue pampering them.
  
• Recommends you get a dog, fish, cat, bird, etc together and he/she has already picked several names.
• Breaks into your room and reads personal files, documents, journals, napkins, etc.
• Has logged onto your email account that you left on and personally messaged every woman in your address book that you never want to speak with them again
• Hits you
  
• Sucks in bed all of a sudden/calls out another guy/girls name
• Starts asking you about your relationship with God (unless you're like that)
  
• Gets mad at you for spending half the day watching football with your guy friends
• Asks to join you and your girlfriends at a viewing of "Gossip Girl"
• Cramps your style

Those are just a few off the top of my head. The bolded ones are the most important and you should get out like lighting quick if they happen.

So I really do plan on keeping on new music Monday and I found all kinds of stuff this weekend. This isn't one of them but this song has been in my head since the VMAs. Probably the only good thing to come out of that show. It's sad too cause I really like Russell Brand. He just didn't resonate well in being a comedian. That and making fun of the Jonas' Brothers on a program who's average viewer is a tween girl probably wasn't the best move. Ahh well. In all fairness...I hate the Jonas' Brothers. That's not music...it's crap.

I know I know...everyone missed me.

I find myself dragging my feet lately. Not because I'm lazy but rather because I have no energy left. Normally that would be do to the consumption of alcohol or other intoxicants but I've been much more responsible with my body lately. Now it's merely because I feel like I haven't had a break from working in about 4 weeks. It's been nonstop. It's my life and that's depressing. I love my job, don't get me wrong. But in the end, my job is to get publicity for companies so they can make more money. When that's all you do, you start to question things. I'm not questioning my career but rather what I do with my free time. I need a freakin hobby.

I sat down the other day after getting a little time to myself and I thought, "Wow...I really haven't done anything but work recently and that's sad." Where are my adventures? Where are my crazy weekends of exploration and wonderment? Where's the fun at? I can go out with friends and drink and party and yell and scream and do things I regret but that's just not as much fun as you would think. I mean it is but not recently. I have felt so empty lately and that's depressing. There has to be something else out there for me that I'm missing. I need something to really excite me again. A year ago that was work. Now what? What will make me happy to the point that I can hardly control it. Something that will make me smile the biggest smile just because I woke up. It doesn't have to be someone laying next to me because my past has proved that that isn't always what will work.

In fact, I recently had an encounter that would normally make any guy "excited" with the mere anticipation of it. However, when it came time...I was uninterested. I was  not into it at all. I wanted something else but I can't figure out what that is. Think about it this way: have you ever woken up in the middle of the night because something woke you up but you weren't sure what? It wasn't a noise or a bad dream but merely a feeling. I've done that at least 6 times in the last 2 weeks. I just wake up and lay there thinking about who knows what. All I know is that there is something nagging at my brain, my body, the pit of my stomach...and it won't leave me be.

I haven't written anything of value really in the last like 10 posts but whatever. This one is for me because I've got that feeling in the pit of my stomach and I just happen to have a laptop on my lap...